Dilemma

Looking in the mirror all I see an empty me                                                                                                                           Face adorned with smile mind stays in daze                                                                                                                     don’t know if its fear, depression or anxiety                                                                                                                      Feels like standing in dense woods as a prey                                                                                                                    trying to catch breath while running in a maze                                                                                                                     Wants to get saved yet drowning own self                                                                                                                             They say you’ll reap what you’ve sown                                                                                                                                    But seems innocent get punished while guilty not                                                                                                               I’d lost myself while pleasing others                                                                                                                                         Now I’m loosing all while searching for self                                                                                                                            The light of life is dim and pale                                                                                                                                                   Words of poison you have to inhale                                                                                                                                          Pieces of hope are scattered floor                                                                                                                                  trying to collect it even crying a lot                                                                                                                                         Non have seen chaos and misery of mine                                                                                                                           Since I’m hiding behind persona of mine                                                                                                                       The shadows are sobbing while scratching the walls                                                                                                                However ego have  always kept the door shut                                                                                                                     People remarks you’ve heart of rock                                                                                                                                         But little did they know there's a child in me                                                                                              who craves love and wanna be free                                                                                                                               Dilemma of life seems  never ending                                                                                                                                        Strangely sentience has bitter sweet swings